I like having a purpose. I encourage my little one to declare an intent each morning and enjoy sharing my intents on Intent.com. Making public declarations helps us live more consciously and bring our aspirations out of our dreams and into reality. With the year winding down, I've discovered a new intent bubbling up within me. I thought I'd share it here today.
My intent is to rise each morning and smile... to be rooted and fluid, steady and secure, transparent, passionate, and balanced... to be accepting of my faults, prepared to get back up again when I fall, and to see everything as my teacher... to have a soft and grateful heart, open and ready to receive the blessings and abundance in my life, to be grounded in my family -- loving them and being loved in return... to know that divinity lives in me as me, and to rest in the awareness that I am enough.
If you have an intent you'd like support achieving, please feel free to share it here -- or join me at Intent.com.
Tuesday, December 7, 2010
I turned forty this week. The day sort of crept up on me. We spent it at home cuddling under warm blankets, noshing on yummy food, playing games, and watching movies. Hubby even made me cupcakes.
Forty feels good. It feels solid and steady, grounded, inward, and whole. Twenty and thirty were outward times -- always trying to get somewhere, ambitious, sometimes blue, often grasping. The last ten years have been filled with letting go, falling apart, and coming back together again.
Being pregnant at forty is a curious and beautiful thing. I'm bringing a new life into this world while giving birth to myself and the next phase of my life. During the last few weeks I've been releasing fear and instability and, as Thich Nahat Hanh writes in Touching the Earth, bowing down to receive the earth's energy of stability and fearlessness. I'm turning my focus to images of the sacred feminine, earth goddesses round and full, and practicing seeing myself in Mama Earth herself.
The preface of the Ksitigarbha Sutra says, "Earth means that which is stable, thick, and has a great capacity for embracing." This has become an affirmation for me. It's helping me find my roots -- to open, and soften and feel the stable earth within. We're planning a natural birth at home and I imagine that these are qualities that will help during labor and delivery. It seems that once again, life is giving me just what I need to learn.